The Incredible Reapppearance of Me

Yay! I got on the scale this morning.  It's  been about a week like 5 days since I weighed last. I am down to 238. I am so excited. The last time I weighed under 240 was when Shiloh was about 2. That's  been a while (seven and a half years). This was a huge goal for me. HUGE. Since surgery I've lost 27 pounds. In three weeks I've lost 27 pounds. Since Nov. 1 I've lost 47 pounds. These are big exciting numbers.... but it won't  always be this way.  Three things: 1. I mess up sometimes.... if I stay up late my mind wants food. I am pretty low carb so this is not a complete disaster but I feel guilt for going off plan. Even with just a few ounces of yogurt or a few bites of a meatball (ah...meatballs). 2.  I am working hard. I try hard to stay on plan...I don't  eat sweets anymore, I don't  eat breads, I don't eat alot of processed stuff. I stay on top of my protein. I try to get my water in. I go to the gym... Man I hope I stick with that. I love ...

I've made many changes this year. The latest one is this new blog. Committed to stick with my journey to finding my healthy self.  So November 1, 2017 I hopped up on the scale and about passed out. Two Hundred- Eightyfive pounds. I couldn't  believe it. In fact just a few months before I was down to 268. Truth is my weight has been up and down (mostly up) for years. Especially these past 12 years. On January 2, 2017 I met with my doctor  and told her I wanted to make a change, a real lasting change. I was ready for something drastic. I was ready for weight loss surgery(insert gasp here). Only my doc. didn't  gasp... she didn't  say "you don't  need that, you aren't  too heavy" She actually said, "I think that will be great for you (fatso!!!)(okay she didn't say fatso, I did because I say some pretty ugly stuff to myself) So it began...my journey. I'll talk more about what the year of waiting was like (obviously not sunshine and rainbows he...